Am I a Leader?
We are always questioning ourselves and our practice as early childhood educators...

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Thirty years doing anything is a long time.
I've been driving a car for 33 years.
I've been best friends with Amber for 36 years.
I've been self-employed for 30 years now.
I have changed thousands of diapers, wiped a million runny noses, and dried a million tears.
If I try to put a guesstimate on the number of children I have enrolled in my programs since 1997, when I had Puddles & Paints Nature Daycare, then opened Little Bears in 2008 while still running Puddles, closing Puddles in 2016 when my daughter was old enough to go to kindergarten, and continuing with Little Bears until today....
My quick math skills have it around 3000 children plus their families (give or take)
3000 children. wow.
I am a 4th-generation Victorian. My grandmother was born here, my mom and her siblings, my sister and I, and now my three children.
My family's deep roots on Vancouver Island are a matter of genealogical classification, not societal demographics.
Yes, I am a Gen X. My mom is a Boomer, and my children are Gen Z. My daughter falls a little closer to the cusp of Gen Alpha, which some lovingly refer to as "Zalpha", but that's above my pay grade.
In short, I feel like I know many people in this city and their children. Everywhere I go, I run into someone who knows me or I know them. And this is wonderful and truly an honour.
Reputation is a big deal in any profession, but I think it's especially vital when you work with children.

 Historically, childcare has been viewed as an extension of motherhood and domestic duties. Because this profession is overwhelmingly female, it is culturally undervalued and underpaid compared to male-dominated fields, even those requiring similar levels of education.

"We confuse the work of educators with the work of mothers."

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There is a societal expectation that early childhood educators are motivated by a selfless love of children rather than the need for a fair wage. This narrative allows society to justify inadequate compensation and poorer working conditions.
I quickly realized that to excel in this field, I would need to establish my own center. 
Many people outside of this field mistakenly believe Early Childhood Educators simply "babysit" children and play all day! This ignorant view ignores the extensive curriculum planning, intentional brain development strategies, purposeful materials/environment planning, and socio-emotional support that WE provide.

Parents/Public often fail to recognize the educational and specialized skills required, such as child development psychology, classroom management, critical brain development techniques, healthy food choices, essential touch and bonding, providing a rich and safe learning environment, all while caring for the well-being of not one, not tw,o but often 4 to 8 little humans on our own! We are helping to "grow little people here!"

Low, Low, LOW wages are a significant barrier to attracting and retaining qualified ECE staff, and they signal society's undervaluation of this profession.

The combination of long hours, low pay, high-pressure environments, and a lack of professional recognition leads to high rates of burnout and staffing shortages. ALL of this further destabilizes the profession and reinforces the perception that it is an unstable/uncredible career path.

For the perception of Early Childhood educators to change, society/parents must recognize the work we do as a specialized, skilled profession rather than a low-skilled service.
Improving educational standards, offering better pay, and changing the public narrative to value ECEs as PROFESSIONALS are key steps toward addressing this stigma.
If I had a nickel for every time a parent would come rushing in on a Monday morning, completely frazzled! Child, backpack, lunch kit, sibling attached, child still in pajamas or a soiled diaper. 
"How do you do this all day?"
"I can't even manage one, how do you manage 8?"
"I feel sorry for you this morning. She is in quite a mood! Bye!"
​"Why would you choose to do THIS kind of job?"

Why? Because we are professionals.
We thrive in chaos; we become incredibly good at transitioning multiple children from one task to the next. We understand a commitment to ethical standards and continuous child development.
We understand that small children are driven by their own interests and impulses rather than a parent's agenda.
Basically, it's like herding cats, and we become exceptionally great at it.

Early Childhood educators are Professionals due to our specialized knowledge, formal training, adherence to ethical standards, and the significant responsibilities we have supporting the holistic development of young humans. Our work goes far beyond basic childcare and requires a unique skillset and commitment to continuous learning.
ECEs learn how to build respectful and collaborative relationships with parents, children, and fellow caregivers. We serve as a crucial link between home and school (daycare), providing research (through ongoing documentation) and resources to help support children and their individual needs.
As a strong advocate for the rights and needs of children across the globe, I will continuously challenge myself to become a stronger leader with a louder voice. 
I strive to help our country recognize our role in shaping future citizens and building stronger communities, just as they have done in Reggio-Emilia, Italy.
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This is the work that I have been so intrigued by in Italy, and why I travel the world to experience hands-on training in different countries!
In Reggio-Emilia, the early childhood educator is valued by society, fairly paid, and considered an essential component in each child's life.

Early Childhood educators are considered "co-learners" and "researchers", rather than simple caregivers.

The Reggio philosophy is built on a strong "image of the child" as well as a "strong image of the teacher," and professionals engage in shared educational research as a priority. They are continuously generating questions and investigating children's learning alongside each child.

​I am incredibly proud of the centres I have built today and of my own "strong image as an educator." I will continue to ask myself, "Who am I as an educator?", and challenge my own beliefs as the years pass on.

In my programs, each and every toy is hand-picked, every material has been lovingly chosen, and all of the wooden furniture was made from our own trees on our own property. Thousands of hours of attention and care have gone into all of the programs, and I cherish each and every one of them.
My entire thirties were spent at Little Bears nearly every single weekend building this place.
My three children in tow, we would pack lunches and enough snacks for an army, and off to Little Bears we went. Often, my mom and dad came to help us. Sometimes they would distract my children so I could work, and sometimes they would paint ceilings and build bridges in the trees. It surely does take a village.
The infant-toddler program was one of my favorite builds, but also one of the hardest and most time-consuming. My entire heart went into building that program, every light switch, every shelf, the toys, the furniture, all intentionally and thoughtfully placed for the best possible environment. When I wasn't at work "building" I was at home "making" toys! I hand-made more Gnomies than I can count (little wood peg gnomes that you stitch together with felt), I hand-sanded hundreds of small Arbutus branch building blocks, finishing them off with lavender or peppermint essential oils so they smelled like heaven. I shopped at thrift stores, garage sales, flea markets, anywhere, finding beautiful loose parts, wooden baskets, copper pots, porcelain tea sets, fabrics, art supplies, paints, and musical instruments. My car trunk was always filled to the brim with treasures from the ocean to the mountains!
I remember one morning around 2 am when the phone woke us up. It was the Highlands Fire Department, and they were sorry to tell us that Little Bears had caught on fire!
Scrambling to wake up all three children and get in the truck as fast as possible, we darted out to Little Bears as fast as we could. When approaching the property, we could see flames high in the air. The police had set up a roadblock a safe distance back from the fire, but that didn't stop me. The moment the truck stopped, I ran towards the fire, praying to God that the entire property wasn't up in flames.
When I got to the next firefighter who saw me coming, I felt instant relief, and instant tears rolled down my cheeks. It was our neighbours' abandoned building on their property next to us that had been set ablaze. Oh My Soul!
There were some dodgy moments, though, as the huge fir trees were also on fire, and our building was definitely in trouble being so close. Thankfully, no one was hurt, there was minimal damage to our property, and the firefighters got everything under control very quickly. What a nightmare! 
All I could think about was that the beautiful building we had created was gone, and my Little Bears children would have no place to go in the morning! Sigh*
This is what small business owners feel and think about their "babies"; our businesses are our babies. We put our entire soul into them! Nothing will ever change that, and we will fight tooth and nail against anyone or anything that threatens it.

So,
When asked if I am a leader in Early childhood education?
Yes. I am.
Do I consider myself a Professional in Early Childhood education?
Yes. I do.
Do I inspire, advocate, and educate other ECEs with my work?
Yes.
Will I continue to share my vision of what Early Childhood Education should look like in Canada?
Yes.
Having actively worked for nearly three decades in this field, I know I have made a positive impact on many families and their children in my city.
Like Loris Malaguzzi's poem, The Hundred Languages of Children, I will continue to work on deepening my knowledge as both a researcher and a student.
My understanding of child development has grown from theory to intuition, where I no longer simply observe a child's behaviour, but I can instinctively recognize the root of their emotions and their needs. 

Looking after and caring for the development of small humans is my life's work and one I will continue to cherish and grow from every day.
I thank every parent and every child that I have had the opportunity to work with; we are all part of each other's story.
​ Shine on!

With gratitude,
Lexie
 










 

Construction on the Bear House. We built a new cubby room for 25 children using the wood from our property.

I have had the privilege of visiting Reggio-Emilia, Italy, a handful of times now. Each experience has built on the last, helping me grasp a deeper understanding of the concept, "Third Teacher".
The concept refers to the learning environment itself.
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​The child's classroom is intentionally designed to be an aesthetically pleasing, organized, and stimulating space that provokes curiosity, wonder, and independent learning.

"Children need the freedom to appreciate the infinite  resources of their hands, their eyes, and their ears, the resources of forms, materials, sounds, and colours." Loris Malaguzzi

So, who or what are the first and second teachers? 
The first teacher is typically the child's parent or guardian—the one with whom they live and the one who is their primary caregiver. The second one is us, their educator/teacher/caregiver at their childcare centre. 
The environment in which a child spends a great number of hours becomes the third teacher as it actively participates in the learning process, evolving with the children's needs and interests.

Loris Malaguzzi (see, I knew I would be bringing him up again), the founder of the Reggio Emilia approach, famously described the learning environment as an "Aquarium which reflects the ideas, ethics, attitudes and  culture of the people who live in it."

The childcare environments are designed to be beautiful, bright, well-organized, and stimulating, using natural light, mirrors, fabrics, branches, shells,  plants, and high-quality materials to create a calming and inspiring atmosphere.

The walls are a reflection of the children and caregivers within the four walls, often displaying family photos, self-portraits, special event details, and past works of art or excursions. Work from previous children who have moved on as they grew is still evident and often found in the beautiful ateliers, which are considered the heart of the schools. Leaving your mark, or "Mark making", is something we use to describe what happens when we move on, but are still remembered as part of the history. It's like a "thumbprint" that we put on our work that lives on and on for all to remember.
This reminds me of a wonderful moment I experienced while visiting "Diana," one of the preschools in Reggio Emilia, Italy. We were on a group visit, and it was close to pick-up time for the children. I was sitting at a small table quietly watching the parents come and go, and the children's pride as they showed their parents a clay piece or a painting that they had done that week.
One dad noticed me observing, and although his English wasn't very good, he was able to communicate with me by showing me what he was trying to say.
After a gentle nod from the Italian educator who was watching the children, the dad disappeared into the Atelier for a moment, returning with a small clay figure in his hand. 
"This is me, I made it," he exclaimed with a giant smile on his face. He held a small, clay figure in the shape of a child, and his name was printed below with the date and his age. Alberto, age 4 years 3 months, 2001. He had attended this very preschool that his son now attends, and he knew where this small "memory maker" was kept safe on a shelf in the Atelier. I was moved to tears.

A well-thought-out and inspiring environment will change regularly depending on the children's interests and their continuing projects.

It is common for tables and furniture to be moved around to accommodate group collaborations or individual explorations, reflecting the curriculum as it emerges.
The layout of the environment is intentionally arranged to promote interaction and communication among peers. The educators create emerging opportunities for small and large group work, where children can negotiate, problem solve, and share ideas.

The Reggio-Emilia approach extends the concept of the third teacher beyond the classroom walls. You might often hear me say that the forest is a magical environment because here, the four walls of a classroom are removed, and the child has space to move and to think.

Outdoor spaces such as gardens and playgrounds are also considered vital learning environments that provide numerous opportunities for scientific inquiry, physical movement, and an ongoing appreciation for nature.

So, I have to ask again, 
"Why are we actively choosing to put our children in classrooms on rooftops, parking lots, and in public school grounds where there is barely a tree or grass or anything else natural around them?"

How do you create the "third teacher" as an educator in a childcare environment?
Educators act as researchers and collaborators who thoughtfully curate and modify the environment to support and enhance the children's learning. There are three basic and widely used steps to complete this process: research, reflect, and renew.

1. Research: The educators carefully and thoughtfully observe the children's interactions, curiosities, and which areas are being used in their classroom or ignored. Morning meetings are held where each child has an opportunity to speak and share their ideas.

2. Reflect: Based on their observations, the educators analyze and interpret the children's interests. They reflect and collaborate on how the environment can be changed or manipulated to foster deeper exploration.

3. Renew: The educators implement intentional changes to the environment, often switching out materials and objects to provoke new interest and dialogue amongst the children. New provocations are created, often with the children's help, that provide additional stimulation for creativity to grow.

"A child's mind is not a container to be filled, rather a fire to be ignited." Loris Malaguzzi

When I inquired to one of the educators in Reggio Emilia about HOW she decided on WHAT to put into her classrooms, she answered very simply,
"I want the children to walk into my room and think WOW! Look how beautiful my classroom is." If they don't think, wow, then I haven't done my job."

Every country strives to share its knowledge with its youngest humans, and the older we get the more we learn and reflect on our past teachings. It is important that our children, here in Canada and even more specifically, here on Vancouver Island, have an understanding of our land, culture, and history.
We continue to strive for our classroom environments to be a direct reflection of how we view NATURE while continuing to foster an everlasting love for our forests and for the land in which we live.
Thank you.

A love for a country is often intertwined with an appreciation for its natural beauty.

As always, thank you for reading my blog, and I always appreciate any thoughts or feedback you may have.
Shine on!
With gratitude,
Lexie




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Some extraordinary spaces I visited in different classrooms in Stockholm, Sweden.

All photos are from my personal collection and are not permitted to be used elsewhere or copied in any way. Please respect my research.

Nothing compares to an incredible hike through the forest on a gorgeous October afternoon. This weekend, my two girl friends and I hiked Gowlland Tod Provincial park up to the lookout on Jocelyn Hill. I am embarrassed to admit that this was my first time doing this hike, since I have lived on this island my entire life! The funny thing is that the trailhead is only about a 5-minute drive from my Little Bears property! 
The climb was quite something. I fully admit that I was not expecting such a grueling terrain of ups and downs. At many points, we were hand over foot climbing through arbutus roots and navigating loose rocks. I thought on a few occasions, 'Am I going to make it?" I don't go hiking every weekend, as much as I would love to. Finding time between soccer tournaments and Volleyball games is challenging when you have children involved in high-level sports. Luckily, I had a 5-hour gap between ferry drop-offs and pick-ups, so this hike was perfectly timed.
I was reminded many times during some of the quiet, comfortable silences walking down the narrow path that this is what I "preach!"
Adults and children belong in the forest!
Theres something magical that happens to your soul when you submerge yourself with trees, rock, land, dirt, cobwebs, ferns, and nature!

Our modern, urban world overstimulates our senses and demands our full attention, while a forest environment allows the nervous system to relax and return to a more balanced state. This practice is known as shinrin-yoku, or "forest bathing."

Within minutes of our hike, I began to feel less stressed. It's amazing what clean forest air can do for your lungs and your mind. About half an hour into our hike, I felt an overwhelming sensation of being very present with my body. My wandering mind wasn't clouded; it felt sharper and less distracted. I was especially mindful of my senses, the sounds, the smell, the colours! I kept asking myself why I didn't do this more often, and I felt incredibly grateful for my health, which allows me to do exciting climbs like this.

Biophilia: Have you heard of this? I remember researching a little bit on this with my colleague, Kim Atkinson, many moons ago. We talked of the human connection between mushrooms, dirt, and trees, and how fascinating that they all "talked" to each other underground with their roots and their vibrations.
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The "Biophilia hypothesis" suggests that humans have an innate affinity for nature, developed over millennia living in natural environments. Spending time in a forest taps into this deep primeval connection and can feel like "returning home" to our natural surroundings, promoting instinctive relaxation.
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Growing up as a child in the 80s, there were always humans in my class with arm and leg casts or stitches somewhere on their bruised and battered bodies. By the time I was 8, I had broken my arm three times (twice on the left and once on my right). Casts were considered cool. A souvenir. My friends wrote on them, they got gross and smelly, and oh my soul, SO itchy! Who didn't want a cast? I swear, children purposely tried to hurt themselves so they had a memento to follow up their amazing near-death stories.
How did I break my arms so many times, you might wonder?
 RISKY play! But not just any kind of risky play, risky play in the 1980s!

My first broken arm was from falling out of a cherry tree in my backyard. My mom was inside cleaning the house when it happened, and I can recall hitting the ground so hard it made my head crack. No stitches, definitely a concussion, and one very broken arm.

The second time was a way cooler story! It was summer, and I was up the road at my friend's house. He had a trampoline; one of the super rare ones (Sundance), I think it was named. It was bright orange and very bouncy. We got the brilliant idea of putting the sprinkler underneath the trampoline and then covering it with dish soap, then jumping as high as we could in our bathing suits, trying to get a double bounce. (if you know, you know) Well... Epic fail and broken arm #2.

The third break happened at Elementary school in grade three. I was pretending to be Princess Laia, and my friend Jason was, of course, Luke Skywalker. We were on one of those really high, exposed metal climbers where you could squeeze through the bars and climb super fast to the top part. Jason had a thick rope which he secured to the top bar, and he was trying to pull me up through the centre of the climber. Eventually, he ran out of rope, and the knot let loose, and down I tumbled, flat onto the cement ground below (no wood chip surfaces underneath in those days). Ouch. Broken arm #3.

Looking around my grade three-four classroom, it was like a war zone. Kids in casts, stitches on eyebrows, cut lips, crutches, bruises... ahh, those were the days!
It's easy to laugh about stories like these and the millions more from adults like me in our 40s. Truth be told, we were rarely supervised, and the world was a dangerous playground in which we navigated as best we could.
Daycares weren't a huge thing in the '80s either. Often, moms stayed home or grandparents helped with us, neighbors kept an eye out, and everyone "generally knew" our whereabouts in the community.
There were also set rules: Don't go into Mrs. Smith's garden (she had the best raspberries), stay out of the swamp (quicksand) (well, not really quick sand, but that swamp claimed a boot or two of ours for sure!), and do not go in the ocean! (I lived a block from Cordova Bay beach)
As a child, I had many chores that were just part of our everyday week. My sister and I hand-washed the dishes after every dinner. She'd wash, I'd dry, or vice versa. We had to clean the bathroom, dust the knick-knacks, and, in my case, we had a wood stove, so I had to cut kindling and carry it in to stack neatly by the stove.
Outdoor play for us was considered a reward for fulfilling all our obligations. Once set free into the neighborhood, we roamed as far as we could, because if we hung around too close, our parents would surely find more work for us to do! There was no staying inside on weekends either. "Out you go, come back for lunch, then see you at dinner!" All we had to do was ride our bikes around for a while and find the abandoned bikes on someone's front lawn. Voila! Instant friends.

While not free from worry, parents were less inclined to "intensely hover" during play time, trusting that their children could navigate physical and social challenges on their own.

"Free-Range" parenting was the dominant style, with children spending hours playing outside without direct adult supervision. We roamed the neighborhood on our bikes, built forts, improvised games with what we could find, and played with children of all ages in the neighborhood surrounding us. The bigger kids (sort of) watched out for the younger kids. And, my little sister had to come with me EVERYWHERE I went. This was pretty normal for most of us.
Evolving dangers:
While our parents trusted us with more independence, new anxieties began to emerge in the mid-80s, including highly publicized cases of missing children and child abductions. In my city, it was the Michael Dunahee case that horrified every parent and child, and one that still sends shivers up my spine to this very day.
These kinds of cases, along with Blockwatch popping up everywhere, Crime Stopper commercials, and police officers visiting our classrooms talking about "stranger-danger", all slowly contributed to a culture of greater parental caution.

Side Note: There was actually a commercial that came on to local TV broadcasting saying, "It's ten o'clock! Do you know where your children are?" 

As the 1980s progressed, economic instability led many parents to believe their children would need to be more successful than their parents to maintain a middle-class lifestyle. This fueled a rise in intensive parenting to ensure children achieved a competitive edge through supervised, enriching activities.

As dual-income households became more common, the "latch-key" child, a child who let themselves into an empty house after school-emerged as a new phenomenon.

The growing availability of parenting advice books in the late 1980s reinforced the role of parents as overseers who prioritize safety and structured enrichment over structured exploration.

This gradual change in parenting styles throughout my childhood laid the groundwork for a more risk-adverse, supervised childhood that became more common in the decades that followed.

Okay, so bringing this back to outdoor play for today's child, and why childcare centres like Little Bears are so incredibly valuable to our children's overall health.
Let's simplify it:
Outside time equals exercise!
Exercise equals endorphins and dopamine!
Endorphins and dopamine lead to happiness!
Happiness means less stress, less anxiety, and less depression!
Sounds pretty simple, right?

It is simple, and this is why I so wholeheartedly believe in my soul that ALL children belong outside and in the forest! If children get used to being outside in all weather, playing outside in all seasons, and even napping outside listening to the rain falling on the roof, they will miss and crave this as they get older! They will WANT to go camping to hear that sound again! They will put on their rain jackets and splash pants to go on that hike even though it is torrential rain! Weather and season will not affect them because they have been hard-wired to adapt to their surroundings and environment.
The first five years of a child's life are a critical period for cognitive development and overall health, laying the foundational "architecture" of the brain for all future learning and wellbeing.
Time spent outdoors naturally encourages children to be more active through running, climbing, and exploring. This helps develop gross motor skills, coordination, and agility, while also combating A SEDENTARY LIFESTYLE.

Isn't that exactly what we are trying to undo? Our own sedentary lifestyles, where anything and everything we need is available at our fingertips.
Our society has largely become obese and depressed, and afraid of the elements. We hide inside when it gets cold and console our thoughts with "comfort foods" and spiced pumpkin lattes when the seasons change from summer to autumn. How many of us are truly heading to the forest every weekend with our children to hike, camp, cook over a fire, and sleep under the stars?
I can personally attest to witnessing children over the space of 4 years go from disliking the rain to absolutely loving the rain. When the new babies start with us around one year old, most have never spent a lot of time outdoors in the elements. As parents, we bundle them up, overclothe them, protect them in plastic stroller covers, and shield them from the rain. Here on Vancouver Island, if we never went outside when it was raining, we would never go outside!
At Little Bears, we go outside every day, rain or shine. Period. Our babies learn very quickly that this is normal and this is a consistent outing in their day. In September, we refer to our little baby-bears' outdoor time as the "symphony of tears", when they unite together and let us know they are uncomfortable! We start them off slowly, spending more and more time outside as they get more comfortable and adjust to their surroundings. We are not cruel; we are, in fact, the opposite. We hold them, we walk with them, we sing to them, we play with them. They are safe, they are warm, and they are wet! (Well, their muddy-buddies are wet, but they are toasty warm underneath!) Winters can be cruel here in Canada, and we are especially mindful of our Little Bears when those temperatures drop really low. The educators still take the little bears outside, but we just come in a little sooner than we would in the warmer months.

Engaging in outdoor play while it is cold and rainy offers our children a variety of developmental benefits, from enhanced sensory experiences and improved motor skills to strengthened immunity and increased resilience.

We strongly support the Scandinavian philosophy that there is no such thing as bad weather, just bad clothing, emphasizing that proper gear can make outdoor exploration possible and enjoyable in nearly any weather! 

Let's break down a few last supporting pieces for outdoor risky play in a FOREST!

Risk assessment and resilience:
The dynamic and unpredictable elements of a forest, such as uneven terrain, loose rocks, and climbable trees, require children to constantly assess risk and manage uncertainty. This fosters resilience and critical thinking in ways a conventional, manicured playground cannot.

Confidence and self-esteem
When children freely choose to challenge themselves, whether by climbing a tree or jumping from a log-and succeed, they build a sense of mastery and confidence in their own abilities. This is a child-led process, reinforcing their self-perceived skills.

Physical Literacy:
The varied terrain builds a wide range of motor skills, coordination, and strength. Activities like climbing trees, balancing on fallen logs, or moving over boulders promote agility and balance.

Emotional regulation:
Navigating the mix of exhilaration and fear during risky play helps children experiment with and manage powerful emotions. This can reduce the risk of anxiety and improve coping strategies later in life. games and problem-solve together without explicit adult direction.

Problem solving and creativity: 
A forest offers endless possibilities for unstructured play using "loose parts" like sticks, rocks, and mud. This encourages imaginative, child-led activities where children must invent.

Sensory stimulation:
A forest provides a rich sensory environment that engages all of a child's senses, unlike many indoor or constructed play spaces. (such as those on rooftops or parking lots)

Mental health:
Exposure to "green spaces" has been shown to reduce stress, improve mood, and decrease symptoms of ADHD. Children with Autism often find sensory relief and often feel calmer while walking through the forest.

With the growing number of studies being done on natural play spaces for children and the health benefits children have from being outdoors, I feel it is safe to conclude that most of us feel strongly that the forest offers unparalleled developmental advantages for children.
These benefits, ranging from enhanced resilience and problem solving to improved physical and mental health-are uniquely fostered by the natural environment's uncertain and stimulating nature.
It is essential to emphasize that these benefits must be balanced with effective hazard management and supportive adult supervision.
Our goal should be to keep children "as safe as necessary, not as safe as possible," empowering them to navigate challenges and build competence on their own terms.

Thank you for reading, and any comments or thoughts you may have on risky play are appreciated.
Shine on!
With Gratitude,
Lexie

The past 30 years have been full of ups and downs as life happens all around us.
My oldest son is nearly 21 years old, yet just yesterday I was pushing him in a stroller to the park. I look at myself and I see my mother. My mother now looks more like my late grandmother. My daughter looks like me, only ten times more beautiful than I can ever remember feeling. Time passes by, and I am so grateful for this beautiful life.
When I started my early childhood career at the age of 20, I had already been working at preschools and daycares for four years. I was 16 when I got a summer job at a daycare, and then every year after, and through college, I worked at various preschools as well. I always knew from a very young age that I wanted to work with children. I feel like it was always meant to be.
​When I opened up my first centre in the basement of my home, I was just 20 years old. I had not yet travelled the world, or even left the island much, but I had a mortgage to pay, a business to run, and 7 little humans to care for all by myself. For almost a decade, I worked 10-hour days, five days a week.
As a young child, I developed a strong sense of empathy and a deep appreciation for creating a safe and supportive environment from an early age, which has been a powerful motivator in my career. While my background instilled in me an understanding of the challenges some children face, it also cultivated a strong personal drive to become a source of stability and nurturing for others.
Early in my life, I navigated many personal challenges. Those experiences taught me a great deal about perseverance and adaptability. 
They also gave me a deep appreciation for the importance of a secure and positive environment for young children. This is one of the many reasons I am so passionate about early childhood education! This is also why I am so very passionate about our forests!
My commitment to helping children grow and thrive is deeply rooted. I've learned that a child's environment can shape their future, and I am driven to be a positive influence in that foundational stage. That journey has equipped me with a high level of empathy and a proactive approach to problem-solving.
The forest.
The forest was MY go-to solitude when I was a child, and as well as when I was a young woman just starting my practice. In the forest, we witness nature's long-term cycles of growth, decay, and resilience. This can offer perspective on the impermanence of our current struggles and remind us of our own capacity for adaptation.
I cannot think of a better classroom than being among trees, branches, birds, meadows, grass, sticks, and pine cones. The natural world offers a rich and dynamic context for early childhood education, extending beyond the confines of a traditional classroom.

Research has shown that outdoor learning can lead to enhanced engagement, improved physical and mental health, and greater imaginative play. By integrating nature into our curriculum, we aim to promote the holistic development of children, fostering not only academic skills but also resilience, creativity, and a lifelong appreciation for the environment.

The outdoor space becomes our "third teacher," offering a diverse and stimulating setting for exploration.
Three decades ago, people were not as open to the concept of learning in nature. I got a lot of pushback from parents who focused more on the dangers of the forest rather than the benefits the forest had to offer. I believe that parent and educator perspectives on outdoor learning were more cautious due to a different societal understanding of risk and child safety. Today, a growing body of research has demonstrated the benefits of carefully managed "risky play," and our approaches have evolved to incorporate this understanding safely.
The "Nature-based" approach was once considered "alternative," and it took time for mainstream acceptance. Past parental reluctance was often based on a lack of familiarity with the pedagogical benefits, which are now widely recognized and supported by research.
I have seen a significant shift in attitudes towards outdoor education. Unfortunately, this kind of childcare facility is now considered a 'luxury" rather than a "standard of care".
Where did we go wrong?
With a growing number of childcare facilities being built in shopping plazas, on the rooftops of high buildings, and on school grounds, I ask this simple question:
"Where is their forest, and why do we seem to be moving backwards?"
We are in British Columbia! For goodness' sake!
We have more forests and more trees than any other province across Canada! In fact, around 60.3 million hectares of British Columbia are forested, which accounts for 64% of the province's total land area.
So, why are we purposely choosing to put children into modular classrooms and parking lots? I'm confused.

Flashback to 2008. I still giggle at my (fantastic) Licensing Officer's reaction when we were finalizing the last inspection before opening Little Bears. He had this checklist that he had to check off, which consisted of a bunch of playground regulations made for "school yards and commercial spaces."
"No, exposed roots, no tripping hazards, no slippery surfaces, no sharp rocks, etc, etc." He just looked at me, like, "How am I supposed to check this paper off when this is a forest and not a playground? EVERYTHING is a hazard!
Luckily, he saw my vision and my passion, and he understood the value of risky play and natural play spaces. I was very lucky that he was my licensing officer at that time.

When I visit the schools in Reggio-Emilia, Italy, I marvel at the time and attention that has gone into their city and into the spaces for children; the focus is on the child. The schools are plentiful, spectacular, and affordable to everyone in their province. There are enough spaces for all of the children, and there are incredible educators who work there making a comfortable wage. It is interesting to note that there are also many men who work in the childcare programs.
The higher number of men in Reggio Emilia's municipal preschools is a result of intentional, historical, and pedagogical factors rooted in the Reggio Emilia approach itself.
In 1944, the city of Reggio Emilia experienced bombing during the Second World War. Loris Malaguzzi ( an aspiring teacher at that time) witnessed the neighbouring community building a school, brick by brick.  It was said that the men wanted to build a theatre, but the women insisted on building a school for their children. The women won, of course.
Loris Malaguzzi worked with the community to establish the first school based on the Reggio Emilia approach.
I feel as if I could write forever on Loris Malaguzzi and the practice of Reggio Emilia because this has been my passion for nearly 3 decades. (more to come on this...)

My intention is to compare a city like Reggio-Emilia, which puts its children first and foremost, and has created beautiful buildings and outdoor spaces purposely built for its children. Even though many of the preschools are located in the heart of the city, you wouldn't know it! Native trees have grown high, and large spaces have been carved out and designed with grass, gardens, and natural foliage. The city has put time, effort, and money into these schools because it recognizes the importance of nature and trees in a child's life! THE FOREST is where the learning happens!

Studies in Finland showed that children who played in daycares with a natural forest floor had a more diverse and robust microbiome, leading to better-regulated immune systems.

Preschools that are in the forest provide abundant opportunities for active, full-body movement like running, climbing, and digging. This supports healthy weight management and combats sedentary lifestyles.
Navigating uneven terrain, climbing rocks, and manipulating natural objects help children develop their balance, agility, coordination, and fine motor control. (Where are they going to do this on an asphalt parking lot covered in rubber mats?)

Nature can have a calming effect on children who may be hyperactive or neurodiverse, and outdoor play has been proven to reduce ADHD symptoms. It helps children cycle through and self-regulate their emotions.

By developing a connection with the natural world from an early age, children are more likely to become responsible environmental stewards later in life. They learn firsthand about ecosystems and the importance of conservation.
Children can learn to assess and manage risks while developing confidence and a sense of self-reliance. Additionally, a forest childcare centre may instill a connection to the natural world, cultivating a sense of environmental awareness from a very young age.
If a child never has the opportunity to hug a tree and feel its energy, how are they going to learn to fight for that forest in the future when it is threatened by development?

Ultimately, the goal of early childhood education is to nurture a well-rounded, capable, and curious little human. The unique aspects of a nature-based, forest education suggest that it is one of many valid options for parents seeking to cultivate a resilient, healthy, and connected child.

Shouldn't this be the goal?

"If you can, you should spend an hour a day in the forest. But in case you're really busy, you should spend two."

Luckily, my Little Bears are in their forest for more than 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. If I were little, this is exactly where I would want to spend my days. (Actually, now that I'm big...this IS exactly where I want to spend my days!)

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog.
As always, 
Shine on!
With gratitude,
Lexie

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Hello, hello. 
I cannot believe that a decade has flown by, and I am just now finally coming up for air. SO many wonderful and not-so-wonderful things have happened in the field of early childhood education that it is going to take many, many months of blogs to catch up!

​My travels have taken me around this big and beautiful world several times, and I have met some of the MOST incredible, intelligent, and charismatic early childhood educators along the way! The three places that I have fallen in love with above all are Italy (Reggio-Emilia, of course), New Zealand, and Sweden.
Having the privilege to travel internationally in my 40s has been such a transformational experience for me, not only as a woman entrepreneur but also as a forever student who can never seem to grasp enough knowledge or find the time to share it all with my colleagues, staff, and students.
Just this past week, I had my very good friend visit me from Australia, whom I met at an Italian, Reggio-Emilia conference, in Stockholm, Sweden. (wrap your brain around that!)
The BEST thing about travelling around the world to learn about the Reggio philosophy is the educators who share the same passion as I do! 

"Find your tribe. Love them hard. I've found mine in the fellow educators who see the world through the same lens of wonder as I do, who are just as passionate and nurturing about little minds and big hearts."

It is easy to forget how beautiful our centres are when you are always engulfed in them. Little Bears has been running since 2008, and as we draw near to our 20th year at this location and my 30th year in practice, I feel overwhelmed reminiscing about the hard work, passion, and commitment that I have poured into my centres.
Whenever a new group of students is toured through or if a colleague flies across the globe to stay with me, I am reminded of this undeniably unique and overwhelmingly stunning forest that we live in. The land itself is breathtaking, let alone the programs that my staff and I have so lovingly designed. 

"Our nature program is the culmination of my team's passion and expertise. I am completely confident that we are providing an unparalleled educational experience that will have a lasting, positive impact on every child who enrolls here."

As I walked through each program with my friend, I tried to look around at each room through her eyes. At first glance, I saw beautiful artwork, thoughtful provocations using the materials I have purchased from here and there over the years, and the natural foliage the educators had gathered from around the property. I noticed the photos on the walls, the smell of peppermint from the air diffuser, and that the morning light lit up the room so beautifully without any of the overhead lights turned on. I feel proud of my amazing staff who work so hard to keep this program running so smoothly and who take such time and care into the environment in which the children spend their days.

**BUT, as the owner of this program, I could only FOCUS on;

1. The books that looked a bit worn and torn needed to be replaced.
2. The bulletin border that had a corner piece missing and the artwork that was dangling off one tack instead of two.
3. Did I replace the hook that had fallen off in the cubby room?
4. The window sills need a fresh coat of paint.
5. I need to replace the mop head for that broom they keep reminding me about.
I am reminded:
"Inside the forest, children are like seedlings, given the perfect conditions of sunlight, space, rich earth to grow into strong, resilient trees."

Yes, here we "grow" little humans into bigger humans who will one day run this world.
It is a privilege to witness the world through a child's eyes every day, and I am often teary-eyed by the experience. The wonder and innocence of children never cease to inspire me. To be a witness to a child's growth is a powerful, heartwarming experience that always reminds me of the importance of my work.

(Big sigh)...
As the owner/businesswoman that I am, the joy of just walking into a program and seeing it through the lens of a NEW parent, or a student, or a colleague from Australia (who has never been to Canada, let alone to a nature program on Vancouver Island) has been sadly skewed and jaded. The business of childcare is hard.
The level of care, attention to detail, safety recognition, costs, wear and tear, repairs, replacements, materials.... it can be overwhelming at best.
For women like me who are (self-diagnosed) overachieving people pleasers with perfectionist intentions and overly high expectations, nothing is ever perfect or finished.
Where I am going with all of this brabble, is that my friend helped me to stop and recognize what was right in front of me. My beautiful centre that is precious, thoughtfully crafted, one-of-a-kind, magical, intrinsic, and purposely built for the love of children.
FOR THE LOVE OF YOUR CHILDREN!
She reminded me that NOTHING like this exists in Australia, because Little Bears is in a forest in Canada! Just like there are no other centres like the ones we visit in Reggio-Emilia, Italy, because they only exist in Italy! We can only be inspired by them; it is not meant that we can re-create or copy them. We have to stay authentic to our own land and our own country. I have woven together threads from different philosophies and beliefs to create a tapestry of my own belief system that works within this natural environment. My worldview is a mosaic of various philosophies, pieced together to form its own unique picture of what Little Bears represents to me and my country.
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As a Canadian citizen, this program has been thoughtfully created while keeping our unique culture and values in mind. By honouring the land and the Indigenous history that we recognize today, we will slowly work towards reconciliation and truth.
We have begun the journey, and we invite the educators, the community, and the future Little Bears students to join us. Our commitment is to learn and grow alongside the children in our care while honouring the history and resilience of first nations people. This means creating a space where every child feels respected, and where we all learn from Indigenous perspectives. We are truly dedicated to creating a brighter future, guided by mutual respect and understanding.

"The woods provide a curriculum written by nature itself, teaching children creativity, resilience, and problem solving in ways a screen never could."

Places like Little Bears do not exist in great numbers.
I can think of ONE other childcare owner/girlboss who shares my love and passion for nature, the environment, and beautiful spaces, and that is Vanessa of Storyoga in Deep Cove, BC. Google her, SHE is the real deal. 
 I do not know of one other group childcare centre on the island (let alone in BC) that provides a 4-acre forest campus, with a Reggio-Emilia-inspired program for infants, toddlers, and preschool-age children. period.
I know what we have is rare and special.
I know that Little Bears is something that I can be very proud of, and I am very protective of everything that has taken me nearly two decades to build.
Thank you, my dear friend, for reopening my eyes and reminding me why I am so passionate about what I do and what I say when it comes to children and their right to excellent education. The forest is a special place and one that we will forever protect fiercely on the island. 
"The forest is an all-season classroom, where every fallen log is a lesson in decomposition and every bird call is a lesson in communication."

Vancouver Island is a magical and beautiful place to raise your children and to fall in love with nature. The overwhelming demand and success of our nature program is a direct reflection of my dedicated staff's vision and hard work over the past two decades. To each of them, I am forever grateful. You know who you are...
Thank you.

To every person who reads this, thank you. 
Your time and attention are the fuel that keeps me writing! I am already excited about what's next, and I can't wait to share the past three decades of wisdom with you in this capacity. Please leave a comment on your thoughts or on a topic you might wish for me to draw on.
Shine on!
With gratitude,
Lexie 
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I am just one of hundreds of early childhood educators cross BC who are trying to wrap our heads around the word reconciliation and what it means for our centres and to the children who feel safe here.
Firstly, I want to acknowledge that Lexie's Little Bears Child Care is on the uncited territory of the Lekwunken First Peoples. It is important to me that the educators, families and guests who come here, know this.
I recently attended a wonderful and very thought provoking workshop at the West Shore CCRR, lead by a speaker from the BC Aboriginal Child Care Society. She did an amazing job of explaining the language we use to welcome and identify our Indigenous community.
In order for us to be successful with our communication, it is important for us to use the correct names.
For example, the word Indigenous is used globally and is usually considered to be politically correct. The most important thing is to address another human with kindness and respect. If this human would like to be acknowledged under a different name, they may tell you.
First Nations in British Columbia refers to the 103 Nations we have here in BC.
First peoples is very similar to Indigenous, and is usually politically correct if said with respect and kindness.
Aboriginal means land based. (Belonging to a nation) However some humans do not like the use of this term because of the prefix (Ab) meaning "not original" It is important to ask or the other human may tell you their preference.
The Metis have specific European heritage, where their community vouches for each member.
And the Inuit are from the Northern Parts of Canada. The Inuit are homogeneous, speaking the same language and of the same culture.
In British Columbia alone, we have 203 different Indigenous languages and there are 600 Indigenous languages across Canada! The indigenous community is the largest growing sector of the population, with many young parents and many large families. There are 1.67 million individuals who identify as First nations, Metis or Inuit, which is 4.9% of the population in Canada.
So, the common thread at this workshop was that most of the educators who were there did not have any indigenous children in their child care programs.(even though we welcome all children and all cultures) The educators who did have Indigenous children, did so for shorter periods of time as the children were usually introduced by Foster care programs.
So where are all the children?
This is the heart breaking part that we are all struggling and grappling with daily. The reality is that many of our indigenous community members do not trust the education system, and therefore they do not trust our centres to be a safe and welcoming place for them or their children.
​For approximately 113 years, Residential schools ran all across Canada.
The last one closed in 1996...
This is our past, and we are committed to acknowledging our past and moving forward with our best intentions to make all children, families and communities feel welcome in our child care centres.
It is our time to be kind, to be gentle and to allow time to slowly heal.
It is an honor to work with  ALL children. 
I will do my part as best I can.
​Lexie

I feel as though 2020 has opened my eyes to some of life's more simple pleasures, ones I have always practiced but never truly appreciated to this extent.
The simple art of napping outside.... breathing in the fresh forest air! How lovely, how pure and how very simple (yet totally perplexing to some) this daily rhythm has become. 
Imagine a large childcare facility located in the forest of Victoria, BC taking on this task.
Years ago, back when I ran a small home-based business from my home, this was a hot- topic of discussion amongst parents!
In the warmer months I would set up the sleep mats all around the back yard and I would let the children sleep outdoors. Fast forward to today, where I have designed and built a sleep shelter... ( The Slumber Lodge) to allow for 16 children to nap all year long! Rain or shine, hail, sleet, snow or wind, we now have a safe and sound structure for children to  sleep in.
It is not as simple as it may seem to organize and settle 8 to 16 children into a deep slumber. The educators have worked with many variances throughout the last few years navigating their way through  bumps and hiccups in the road.
One of the funniest realities at nap time is that nature can be really noisy!
​Tired little eyes will shoot open with a loud caw from a curious crow or a cheeky little squirrel making its way up a tree with a load of seeds in its mouth. It can also be extremely distracting when you are trying to sleep!
One educator told me a story about two birds in the spring (mating season) that were inside the Slumber lodge calling back and forth to each other in the rafters of the ceiling. She said it was so loud she couldn't believe all the children didn't wake up! ( sometimes these things just work themselves out!)
The educators found that the lull of soft, sleep music does help the children focus and slow down their thoughts. For this reason, the Slumber Lodge has power and fairy lights built in so they can plug in their phones and speakers for music and their computers for documentation.
Another hurdle was that its light outside in the afternoons! When we put children down for a nap indoors, we often have the room completely dark with sleep blinds and heavy curtains stopping any sliver of light to pass through. When you nap outdoors, there are no sleep blinds and there are no curtains. In fact, sometimes that sunshine might be streaming straight into your eyes! For these reasons, we thought an outdoor structure that was solid, had walls and a roof and a cement floor would suit best for all weather and all seasons. They are on cots which keep them warm and off of the hard floor, and the educators have low seating chairs (beach chairs) that allow them to move around and rub backs when needed.
Proper sleeping bags or sleep sacks would be needed for the cooler months when the rains are relentless and the snow covers the ground.
On the West Coast of Vancouver Island, we see a lot of inclement weather! Our winters are relatively mild compared to the rest of Canada , but they can be equally ruthless.
An outdoor washroom was also constructed in close proximity to the Slumber Lodge to allow any one to be within sight incase "nature-calls". 
Lastly, while working closely with my (talented) Infant/toddler educators, we designed a cubby/storage and changing area that would allow the children to be comfortably changed outdoors rather then having to go inside. A boot rack and hooks were also installed for their shoes and jackets.
Essentially, the Slumber Lodge has become an outdoor classroom where both the educators and children can access everything they need for the day without having to go indoors. 
This is where we insert COVID 19, and all that it has changed in our worlds...
We have learned so much since March 2020. I have written, re-written, changed and implemented more policies and procedures this year then in the 25 years I have been an educator! We have all been in different stages of fear for different reasons and for different lengths of time and we are all just holding on and doing our best given the circumstances we are in.
One of the greatest gifts that having an outdoor program has given us throughout the pandemic is the gift of space. We are on 4 acres of forest land, and we can distance ourselves in a way that many childcare centres cannot. The educators are able to come to work and feel safe. This means everything.
No one saw this pandemic coming, and we certainly had no idea it would still be going on past Christmas, but here we are.
Policies and procedures have been implemented and families have been incredibly resilient over the past 10 months... and we have endured.
Outdoor programming, sleeping in the forest, bringing materials outside, distancing ourselves throughout the property, eating outdoors, and an outdoor washroom where we play are just some of the ways we are getting through this pandemic together.
Children are incredibly resilient, even more so than many of us give them credit for.
We will one day look back at 2020 and reflect on all the LIFE that this year brought us. Hopefully, with a little luck, our children at Little Bears won't recall the extra handwashing, sanitization methods or perimeters we set.
Hopefully they will just feel that they have been safe, a sense of love and kindness from everyone around them and "knowing" that they spent their time outside, in nature with the trees swaying and the crows cawing, and taking their long winters naps outdoors, snuggled up with their blankets and sleep sacks listening to the rain on the tin roof.
I am thankful for nature and to be working with the most extraordinary educators through these uncertain times. 
We will eventually unpack all of our thoughts on 2020.
But, today I will sit by the fire with my tea in reflection, and I am so thankful to be living here on Vancouver Island where I too feel safe...

"The human capacity for burden is like bamboo-far more flexible than you'd ever  believe at first glance." Jodi Picoult, My sisters Keeper..
Thank you for reading. Stay safe out there!
Lexie





  

 Well, after two months of holding in one of the biggest secrets of my career, I can finally share some photos.
This experience has been incredibly surreal from the moment Chris called me and told me that I had won this award.
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It has been one of the most amazing weeks of my life as I sit here and reflect on my time spent in Ottawa.
There were 5 Early Childhood Educators chosen for this award across the nation.
It was so inspiring to meet the incredible teachers from across Canada who all teach in various provinces with their varying skills. We were all so different, yet joining together to accept this prestigious award together.
One of the recipients, Amandine; also works as an early childhood educator in Yellowknife. I was so inspired by her story.
The day she flew home it snowed again! It's the end of May!
I can't imagine what it would be like to teach small children in an environment where there is snow 6 months of the year, full daylight on some days, and full darkness on others, and the protocol for coming indoor during the winter is -33. (children start to cough a lot at this temperature, and they become in danger of freezing their lungs) This just blows my mind. People are amazing!
Our local MP Elizabeth May also came to congratulate me. She was voting during the ceremony, but she managed to come over and have a glass of wine with me after the awards. What a beautiful and kind woman she is. We are VERY lucky here in BC to have such compassionate representatives. She is also quite hilarious!
Meeting the Prime Minister was surreal, and epic in is own quiet way. I ried to slow the moment as best I could, walking mindfully across the stage (repeating don't trip, don't fart) in my head. I was more worried about stumbling in my tall red shoes than anything! But they did make an impression, and they matched the red in the background Canada flags perfectly! lol.
It was Justin's anniversary this day, so we all knew our time with him was very limited. Selfies after the awards were kaibosched immediatly when we were told he would be racing off to meet Sophie for a date!
I did have an opportunity to congratulate him on his anniversary, and he was very genuine and kind when he spoke. He congratulated me, and told me that my nature program was very impressive. He was all smiles and kissed both sides of my cheek very traditionally.
My 20 seconds were over in the blink of an eye.

The week we were there, we were treated like Royalty. There were beautiful buffets, interviews, media opportunities and lots of time to collaborate with the other recipients. I think there were 16 of us in total, and many brought their families and spouces with them.
We visited the Science Museum, Q & A period with Mr. Speaker (what a sight that was to see!), Parliament Hill, and a pin ceremony as well.
Overall, this experience has been life changing.
When I first arrived, I didn't feel worthy of this recognition. I thought to myself, "How am I actually getting this award? 
By the time Ieft Ottawa, I was in awe. The other recipients LOVED what I was doing here in BC with small children! They LOVED the idea of Nature daycares, outdoor napping, muddy buddies, forest walks etc etc. They made me feel worthy of this award. It was te recognition from my colleagues that made this feel earned.
That is worth it's weight in gold!
Thank you.
​Lexie

 It's Friday afternoon and as usual I am buzzing around all the centres, trying to connect with all my staff before I rush out in time to pick up my youngest daughter from school.
I don't live in this neighborhood, although I have travelled these roads daily for the past decade. I know I must leave by 2 pm to get to my daughters school by 2:40. There's just not enough time in the day to get everything I need to done!
I enter the Spirit Bear Lodge, hands full with bursting Dollar Store bags, books and keys in hand. The fresh scent of Lavender immediately hits my nose, and I am welcomed by two women engaged in conversation in the atelier. One is our Atelierista the other our cleaner. As the two ladies continue their conversation I am then greeted with running knee hugs from two of my little bears. I feel so welcome here. This is my second home.
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I start to find places for the new books on the wooden shelf, and I start to sort through the giant Recyclable bag from the Dollar store. So many things....
I had an idea one night while I was thinking about spring and all the flowering plants around the property. I thought, what if I could bring in those bright flowers and make them last? I had found these incredibly beautiful silk and fabric flowers from the dollar store that I thought would really make the centres look incredible.
I started in the Cub House and slowly made my way through the 4 other centres, decorating with bursts of colours everywhere.
As I sat in conversation with one of my staff, we both agreed that the flowers had such a beautiful and soft touch to them, and it really helped to brighten the space up.
In the Reggio philosophy, Loris Malaguzzi encourages us to use he environment as the third teacher. We create beautiful spaces worthy of the beautiful children who occupy them.
As I looked around at my creative masterpieces I say to my staff,
"I like the way it looks, even if they are plastic."
We both kind of paused for a moment. 
There's that DIRTY word....plastic.
I immediately thought, "Do I really love this, even though they are not real?"
Looking to my colleague, she agreed that the additional flowers looked lovely and that they did add a new and beautiful element to the environment.
"We're all just a walking contradiction, aren't we?", she laughed.
"Yes, we truly are." I agreed uncertainly.
Even if you read back to one of my earliest posts, you will find an article about banning plastics and my hatred for cheaply made, expendable land fill.
So why am I purposely buying them fro my centre?

I guess, even my own beliefs can be squewed a little when I get into the decorating mood. When I wrap my brain around my idea of a (throw-way) plastic and one that will last in my centres for decades, I can find some rationale with it.
I know these flowers will be used and re-used over and over again for decades. I know that they can be restored very easily when they get a little dull with some soap and water. (you can even throw them in the dishwasher if you didn't know!)
I have 4 centres that they can rotate through. If they happen to break (which is highly unlikely) I suppose they could be cut up and used in the atelier.
For some reason, I felt like these were okay to purchase, because they don't have a one-time -only use.
But even now, here I am questioning my decision.
This is not the first or the last time I will question the decisions I make when it comes to my programs and the working environment.
In the article that Kim Atkinson and I wrote a couple of years ago, "An Uncertain Tale: Alternative Conceptualizations of Pedagogical Leadership", I was grappling with the idea of completely changing a much loved, and very popular space in my program called the Zoom Room. This room was filled with bright primary coloured plastics "Disney" posters, cars, trains and A LOT of PLASTIC toys. At one time, I thought this room was awesome, but something deep inside was telling me a different story. 
It started on a weekend, I just emptied the entire space out. Everything had to go! The room had also become a holding space for "beautiful junk" that I had been holding on for who knows how long! When was I ever going to use that old water marked paper roll, those egg cartons, that flower wrap or those Christmas cards? It was too much, and it all needed to go.
To shorten this story, and get to the point, this "zoom room" became an art studio, or "atelier" as they would call it in Reggio-Emilia, Italy.
It took on a whole new feeling, as I covered the walls in white paper, added some pre-mixed paint jars, wooden stumps and even a giant brick of clay.
Fast forward, to present day, you will NOT find a ZOOM room in ANY of my centres, but you most certainly will find our precious art studios, papered walls, lots of wooden stumps, paint jars and giant lumps of clay.
In our everyday life we contradict ourselves all the time!
We buy items from China, even though we protest child labor.
We stop at Tim Horton's for a tea and a doughnut even though we are trying to lose a few pounds.
I could go on ad on, but you get the idea.
I can live with my decision to buy these silk,fabric and plastic flowers for my centre. I feel strongly that I am doing my part in SO many ways to be true to my beliefs and my word.
It is nice to take a step back now and then and question the , "WHY", of what we do.
I am truly so thankful to have such incredible colleagues around me who can also comment and question my actions with the sincerity that they do.
We are only human. 
I am only one of many people that work in this environment, and it has to feel right for everyone!
I am reminded that we do have many REAL flowers and bushes around the property that actually smell and bloom every spring, and I am so thankful for their beauty.
Today, I will stop and smell them all.
Lexie